Friday, August 29, 2014

BEAUTY IN BROKENNESS

Reflecting...... 

About two and a half weeks ago I had a job interview for a position that I had not planned on applying for.  

After pondering if I should apply for the job and with the motivation of family and friends, I applied.  

Although my life has not been completely bad, there have been many times that I've said, "I'm not good enough, I don't qualify, and I don't think I can do it!"  

The morning of my interview, full of butterflies and worries, I was prompted to put my pin on from "Beauty in Brokenness."  I heard the clear voice of God and He said "go put your pin on!"  (Mind you, I don't wear my pin often, only on special occasions)!  

So I go and put my pin on and I look in the mirror and The Lord spoke to me again and said, "I have created you! Daughter of mine, you are more then qualified!  I have made every detail of you carefully so that you would bring change to the world.  A hope that one would find Only in Me!  And although man disqualifies you, I The Lord breathed life to you and made you more than enough!  

"The pin that you are wearing is a pin that was made from broken pieces, unused items, and pretty much objects that needed to go in the trash," BUT God!  

The Lord reminded me at that moment that although I had been someone that was broken, stripped, wounded, used up, tried, discouraged, and hurt......... He mended me, loved me, encouraged me, blessed me, gave me strength, and told me that I was fearfully and wonderfully made!  He made ME whole again!  Although I was broken, He fixed me!  He made me beautiful even in my brokenness!  

Needless to say, after 3 interviews, I got the job as a Community School Director!  God is faithful and He reminds me that He takes care of His people!  Never in a million years did I think Id hold a position as a Director in the Corporate World!  I'm truly blessed and looking forward to working with the School, Youth, Families and the Community of Hartford!  Never let anyone tell you that you can't do something!  If God is for you, who can be against you?! 

Thank you Lord for Pastor Susana Viera that you would give her such a vision with the ministry, "Beauty in Brokenness!"  

If you'd like to purchase a pin, please email Pastor Suzie at suev62@icloud.com. All of these pins are hand crafted by her and not one is the same!  It's made from buttons, and other pieces that are at home and not being put to use! The message and testimony that comes with it is very powerful!  Buy one for yourself, a friend, a wife, or loved one!  Anyone that owns one will truly be blessed!  Be encouraged and know that God always has the final say! ❤️ 

So, Here's my pic on my interview Day 1 with my pin! 😁❤️


Saturday, July 5, 2014

SOME FRIENDSHIPS HAVE TO GO

Listen! When you feel like your doing the most to be someone's friend and they don't respond to you or even acknowledge you, please know it's time to move on.

No hard feelings but they cannot be apart of the next chapter of your life and that's OK! You will survive because your strong, blessed and highly favored.

Stop hurting yourself by trying to continue a friendship that is clearly dead! Move on. There are more people in the world that would love to be apart of your future.

Stay blessed folks! And remember that you always have a friend in Jesus! He won't turn His back on you and that's a fact Jack!

Be Encouraged! 

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

LIFETIME CONNECTIONS

Sometimes God connects us with seasonal people. Sometimes God connects us with lifetime people.

I'm grateful for the seasonal people because I've learned that we can not be connected Forever. It is JUST a season! So when that season is over, clean up and get prepared for the next season.

I am forever grateful for lifetime connections! These are the people that are there in the good, the great, the bad, and the ugly! With lifetime connections, growth happens, no judgments, and there's motivation to do better.

Letting go of seasonal connections might not be easy for one reason or another, but it's not impossible. It might hurt, but hurt doesn't last always. Joy comes in the morning.

I'm grateful for all of those that have cross my path, and look forward to many more. If Christ loves me just the way I am, and He's the perfect example, then I choose to love just as much!

I'm not perfect and have made MANY errors in life, but how will I learn without making mistakes first. Getting back up and knowing there is support from lifetime connections makes life a bit smoother.

Love, but not just love, love harder, forgive, move forward, do everything in excellence, and press forward as a team! It gets better!

Be Encouraged 

Monday, January 14, 2013

FIND YOU ON MY KNEES

"Find You On My Knees"


Troubles chasing me again,
Breaking down my best defense,
I'm looking, God, I'm looking for you
Weary just won't let me rest and fear is filling up my head.
I'm longing, God I'm longing for you

But I will find you in the place I'm in, find you when I'm at my end,
Find you when there's nothing left of me to offer you except for brokenness.
You lift me up, you'll never leave me thirsty,
When I am weak, when I am lost and searching
I'll find you on my knees.

So what if sorrow shakes my faith,
What if heartache still remains,
I'll trust you, my god I'll trust you.
'Cause You are faithful and

I will find you in the place I'm in, find you when I'm at my end,
Find you when there's nothing left of me to offer you except for brokenness.
You lift me up, you'll never leave me thirsty,
When I am weak, when I am lost and searching
I'll find you on my knees, my knees.
When my hope is gone, when the fear is strong
When the pain is real, when it's hard to heal
When my faith is shaken and my heart is broken and my joy is stolen, God I know that

You lift me up, you'll never leave me thirsty,

Find you in the place I'm in, find you when I'm at my end,
Find you when there's nothing left of me to offer you except for brokenness.
You lift me up, you'll never leave me thirsty,
When I am weak, when I am lost and searching
I'll find you on my knees.
 
~By Kari Jobe
 
Had to simply share one of the most amazing songs that expresses how I feel at times.  Thank you Kari Jobe for allowing the Lord to always use you through your gifts that He has given you.  May He forever bless you!  :)

Friday, January 11, 2013

JUST PASSING THROUGH

Going through a storm right now? 
 
Are the winds blowing so hard that you're trying to hold onto anything that will keep you from going with the wind?
 
Are those waves rocking your boat so hard that your sick to your stomach?
 
Is the water your on ready to turn your boat over?
 
Are you drowning and feeling lonely on your ship?
 
Sometimes we often wonder why life has dealt us such a rocky sail on the sea.  We hold on, we swim, we fight, we try to look at the other side for a glimpse of hope. 

 Mark 4:35-41

35 That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, “Let us go over to the other side.” 36 Leaving the crowd behind, they took him along, just as he was, in the boat. There were also other boats with him. 37 A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped. 38 Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?”
39 He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.
40 He said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”
41 They were terrified and asked each other, “Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!”
 

Deuteronomy 31:8

 
8 The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”
 
God's hand is not to short to reach you.  Cry out to the Lord for help.  He will rescue you from all your fears, trials, and hurts.  When all is coming against you, take a stand and have faith in the Almighty God. 
 
Storms come but in due time, they cease.  This may be just a season, and perhaps at this moment it's a long season, just know that God will hold you strong through it all.  Continue to keep your eyes focused on Him. 
 
Tell your storm that you are "just passing through."  You are not staying on rough waters forever.  Claim and decree that you will not be stagnet , you will not drown but you will swim. 

Matthew 14:25-33


25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.
27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”
28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
29 “Come,” he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”
31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
32 And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”

 
Although fear tries to trap us into believing we will sink, the Lord reminds us to have faith and hold on just a little longer.  Even if things look impossible, encourage yourself just as David did and know that He is God and all things will come together for the glory of God. 
 
1 Samuel 30:1-6
 
30 And it came to pass, when David and his men were come to Ziklag on the third day, that the Amalekites had invaded the south, and Ziklag, and smitten Ziklag, and burned it with fire;
2 And had taken the women captives, that were therein: they slew not any, either great or small, but carried them away, and went on their way.
3 So David and his men came to the city, and, behold, it was burned with fire; and their wives, and their sons, and their daughters, were taken captives.
4 Then David and the people that were with him lifted up their voice and wept, until they had no more power to weep.
5 And David's two wives were taken captives, Ahinoam the Jezreelitess, and Abigail the wife of Nabal the Carmelite.
6 And David was greatly distressed; for the people spake of stoning him, because the soul of all the people was grieved, every man for his sons and for his daughters: but David encouraged himself in the Lord his God.
 
No matter what is going on in your life right now, tell that storm that your "just passing through."  Although David was in distressed, he knew where his help would come from.  His hope was in Christ alone. 
 
God has called us to be Victorious.  How can you fight if your walking around defeated.?  NO!  Stand up and rise to the occasion.  God has equipped us with the proper tools to Fight, Swim, and hold on.  Do what is necessary to make it! 

Ephesians 6:10-18

 
10 A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil. 12 For we[c] are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.
13 Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standing firm. 14 Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness. 15 For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared.[d] 16 In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil.[e] 17 Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
18 Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere.[f]
 
Put on the whole armor!  Don't let your boat sink!  If God is for you, Who can be against you?  Tell that storm your "just passing through!"  It can not keep you from where God is bringing you.  Have faith friends and believe that God is still working in the midst of it all.  Be encouraged today!
 

Friday, January 6, 2012

STRIPPED & SHAKEN......BUT GOD

Have you ever been stripped?  Whether stripped from loved ones, material things, hope, or needed things?  Have things ever gotten to the point that you just don't know if you could recover from it?  Has being stripped brought you to the point that it has shaken or rocked your world?  

I'm not to sure about you, but it has definitely happen to me.  You see, although I am a Christian and try to live a life that is pleasing to the Lord, I still get rocked.  Being a Christian doesn't necessarily mean that everything is smooth sailing and challenges will not exist.  That is far from the truth!  Truth be told, sometimes we are the ones that get the big hits.  

Many things have happened in my 39 years of life.  But the one thing that rocked me the most.......... The death of my three year old daughter.  Who would of thought?  Why me?  Lord I have been serving you faithfully, I love my kids, I have a strong family support system, and I live to worship you...... Why me?  The life of my three year old daughter gone, without reason, I just don't understand why me of all people to choose from. 

There came a point and time that I questioned God so much because I wanted answers!  I even told Him, "there are so many people that abuse their kids, and don't love them.  Why would you take mine?  I love my daughters and take very good care of them.  Why my little girl?"  

Julie was her name, Julie Yvette Gonzalez!  Our second daughter.  She was the funniest character.  She definitely was one to give me a run for my money.  She was a spit fire, observant, talkative, attitude (a good one, ha), and just plain real.  She impacted many people by simply being herself.  She would play with all the other kids and would act like little mother goose.  

One thing that I would say about Julie is that her worship for God was so pure. Every service, she would be the first one in the front dancing before the Lord. Giving honor to the King is what my baby girl would do continuously.  What a joy for me to see her honor God, I was a proud mom! :)

Julie, after she was about 1 year old, she would continually get sick.  Sick, as in cold symptoms.... runny nose, fever, some vomiting, puffy eyes, etc.  We would take her to the hospital and they would never find anything wrong with her.  "Oh she's fine, just give her some Tylenol, and pedia-lite."  But this went on for way to long.  It was getting so bad that doctors would check her and still "nothing is wrong."  Then they would check her veins.... and guess what?  Her veins would be collapsed due to the lack of liquids not being held down.  

One day, on August 18, 1997, our daughter, Julie Yvette Gonzalez, never made it through the night.  Julie was resting in my room because she didn't feel well,(mind you she had a doctor's appt in the morning).  I walked into my room and as she was laying down on my floor in my room, she was taking her last breath........... I started freaking out.... I ran out screaming my mothers name... MOMMMMMMM......  She was foaming at the mouth, my mother picked her up and brought her to the kitchen floor.  Our neighbor, Amy, who happened to be at our house, was on the phone with 911, and my mother was trying to revive her.  This had to be the longest hours of my life.  

Paramedics arrive..... I'm huddled in the corner sobbing, my father bust through the back door to try and help, and my husband had just gotten home from work.  The blank stare in her eyes...... No words!  We rushed to the hospital in the ambulance and as were both(my husband & I) were wondering if she was going to make it.  After at least 2 hours of the doctors trying to bring our Julie back, the doctors came in to our room to give us the news.  Mr. and Mrs. Gonzalez, we are truly sorry, but your daughter did not make it.  We did everything we could.  If you would like to see her and spend time with her, we will gladly provide a room for your family and friends.  
Wailing, hearts crushed, heavy and hollowed hearts, hurt, stripped and shaken!

Disbelief!  My heart is still heavy just writing about it.... my eyes are full of tears... Our little girl will not go to high school, college, marry, or give us grand children.  Our little girl has left us, how do we live without her?  I wanted to shout out to the WORLD....."EVERYBODY STOP TALKING, WALKING, GOING TO WORK, AND LIVING, OUR LITTLE GIRL HAS PASSED.  DON'T MOVE!!!!!!!"  My mind was everywhere...... Why me?  

I know that this is not everyone's story, but it is my story.  We never knew what happened?  We had an autopsy done and the results..... UNDETERMINED!  Why me Lord?  Everything came back normal in the autopsy.  I couldn't wrap my head around what had taken place.  My Lord, help me.  

I understand now that her mission in this life was accomplished and she is with the eternal Father.  When I think of what we went through during that time, I can't help but think of Job in the Bible.  Job lost everything, his family, his crops, his livestock, land, health, etc.  But even through all that, Job was a man of faith, patience and endurance.  Through his loss, he still believed in the Almighty God and trusted that the Lord would not forsake him, nor leave him.  Job suffered intense emotional and physical pain.  And he too, didn't know why he was suffering.  

In the end, God gave Job more and abundant.  Job was a blessed man, he stood faithful to God regardless of what had taken place and there was no answer.  

Often we suffer consequences for bad decisions and actions.  Job's willingness to repent and confess known wrongs is a good guideline for us.  Sometimes suffering shapes us for special service to others.  Sometimes suffering is an attack by satan on our lives.  And sometimes we don't know why we suffer.  At those times, are we willing to trust God in spite of unanswered questions? 

I know I am!  It was a hard, long process for our family.  But GOD!!!  He restored us, and although Julie can NEVER be replaced, He gave us a double portion.  The Lord granted us two more daughters, in which are 11 months apart.  They are now 13 and 12, and of course our oldest, which is 22 now. The Lord gave us the strength to carry on and fill us up again.  If it hadn't been for God..... I'm SO sure that I would have been stripped, shaken and destroyed!  BUT GOD!  

James 5:10,11
For examples of patience in suffering, dear brothers and sisters, look at the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord.  We give great honor to those who endure under suffering.  For instance, you know about Job, a man of great endurance.  You can see how the Lord was kind to him at the end, for the Lord is full of tenderness and mercy.

This was rather big for our family..... What are you stripped and shaken about? Are you really trusting God to pull you through?  


Julie Yvette Gonzalez
2/10/94 - 8/18/97 RIP...... Until we meet again! Never forgotten!

Friday, December 30, 2011

FORGIVENESS IS POSSIBLE

I have found that many people turn up their nose when they hear the word forgive or forgiveness.  Anything that has to do with forgiving is frowned upon. 

Understanding that when you are hurt repeatedly, it is much more difficult to let go of what has been done to you.  You begin to build walls and not allow anyone to enter into your circle.  You have caution signs all around you as if you are untouchable.  Your heart becomes solid as a rock and there is no moving that heart of stone! 

Unforgiveness does not play in its circle by itself.  Unforgiveness has important components to help it work more effectively.  Once unforgiveness begins... bitterness, resentment, anger, hate, rage, and low self-esteem, to name a few, begin to work hand in hand.  You become blind to see any good of many other people, or rather all you see is bad.  Life shouldn't be this way. 

John 10:10
The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy.  I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly

You see..... the reality is that we have given into having an unforgiving heart.  We have allowed the enemy to come in and steal our joy, kill our spirit, and destroy our mission, ministry, and life that God has set in place for us. 

There have been many things that have happened in our lives that simply seem unforgivable.  There are many people that often wonder how can I carry on when so much damage has been done to me?  Physical abuse, sexual abuse, emotional abuse, mental abuse, rejection, abandonment, neglect, and the list goes on and on.  Some cases more severe then others.  The pain and agony of why me?  Why did I have to suffer such things?  What did I do to deserve this?   

The truth is that you didn't deserve any of the pain and suffering that you have endured.  I know that there is nothing that I could say to make anything easier for you.  However, I do serve a God that can heal your heart and bring you comfort.   You will probably never forget what has taken place in your life, but the God that I serve will give you a peace that surpasses all understanding so that you can carry on in life without torment.  You can have the victory!

The enemy doesn't want you to be free from the bondage of unforgiveness.  It probably feels good to hold the grudge against the other person, but you need to realize that they are keeping you hostage to the things they have done to you.  God has called us to be free. 

John 8:36
So if the Son sets you free, you are truly free. 

When you forgive the other person, freedom takes place, and anger, bitterness, resentment, etc begin to cease.  When God is in the midst of your life and you have surrendered, there is no room for unforgiveness and its components. 

Furthermore, the Bible says:

Matthew 6:15
But if you refuse to forgive others, your father will not forgive your sins.

Forgive others that have wronged you, cheated, hurt, and or abused you.  There is freedom in forgiveness!  God wants you to be free and delivered.  It is easy to ask God for forgiveness but difficult to grant it to others.  Whenever we ask God to forgive us for sin, we should ask, Have I forgiven the people who have wronged me?

Ephesians 4:32
Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you.

I understand that this is easier said then done, but it's not impossible.  Allow God to heal you, forgive you, show you unconditional love, set you free, and remind you of His grace that is sufficient.  God is waiting for you to give Him your burdens.... Be set free today.  Run to Him!  Forgiveness is Possible, In Jesus Name!